Today's Mission

Listening to: The Skatalites (Brings bag the pain just fine)
mood: Somewhere between wanting to self-destruct and wanting to destruct the entire world

Well I’ve been to Beijing qhite a while now and what can I say. I had a marvelous start and it all went down from there. Well not quite.
It started with the fact that the class at Uni I was initially assigned to was way to hard for me. So I switched to a lower one, which was too easy. On day three I finally found a class I actually liked and I stayed there. Love 2 of my teachers, don’t care two much about the other two.
I love my flat though, even though because I have pre-paid cards for water and electricity I already ran out of electricity once. Fucking nice to get up in the morning and be in the dark.
I bought a bike which safes me abut half an hour in the morning. Some of you might think I’m crazy putting myself in danger by participating in Beijing’s crazy traffic, but hey, I like my sleep and I like lots of it. And it’s not all that bad to be honest, cuz people drive friggin illogical from my point of view, but they do so ridiculously slow, too. I probably need about ten years to get all the exhaust damage out of my lungs again though.
Uni is tougher than I thought. It quite time consuming and makes me really tried but I guess that’s what I am here for, right?
Was more or less forced by a class trip to clim up the friggin Wall of China. But it was a nice to see it again and the workout was good. Got to know my class mates a little better, too.
That night I flew down to Shanghai to see an old friend. Came back on Sunday. Shanghai is a lot more like Tokyo than I remembered it. And my friend is nearly the same as he used to be, but only nearly. Well people change I guess. I did for sure in the past year. And I’m not only referring to the fact that I grew as bitter as a veteran who’s irgnored by the country he fought for.
What else happened. Oh yes, I had the great pleasure of having the chance to go to a Chinese hospital. Splendid. I called somebody I knew from school, to come pic me up at my apartment to help me not to collapse on my way to the hospital or during my time being there. Really nice of him to take care of me and do all the paper work and trying to keep me conscious. After about 3 hours of administrative shit, a blood test and seeing the doc twice they finally decied to put me on a drip. I swear to God, I don’t remember the last time I’ve been in so much pain and not being able to breathe through it. No, I don’t mean the drip. I mean the time before they put me on the drip. I was wilting away, but wow, drips are fucking genius man, the stuff they pumped through my vanes brought me back to life within 10 minutes.
At home I just felt like shit. Of course I did. How would you feel having to depend on the help of people you’ve only met two weeks ago, nearly collapse and sit at home alone after that. Not the best thing in the world, but I guess that’s what I chose, so I don’t wanna complain.
Had to go back and put back on the drip two more times to make sure I don’t relapse into my previous state.
Not much good came out of the whole situation. But hey, I’m still alive so I guess that’s what counts.
Don’t feel much like studying though, I guess that’s understandable.
And to add a little more pain, cuz I just like to drown myself in miserable feelings while I’m already at it due to all kinds of different circumstances I’m gonna listen to Morphine for the rest of the day.
Read (nearly to the end) a quite good book though: High Fidelity by Nick Hornby.

listening to: Some Chinese music
mood: excellent

Yesterday morning I arrived in Beijing. It’s my first visit in this city in over 15 years, so you can imagine that it changed a lot. But since I can’t remember much of the Beijing 16 or so years ago it doesn’t really matter. Beijing is HUGE! I can’t say much more about it now, cuz at my first day I didn’t do too much. My friend Britta, who has been living here for about 2 years now, picked me up from the airport, helped me get my tickets to Shanghai, which I bought online from an Chinese agency in order to not more than actually needed and off we went to my hotel. I had a quick shower, cleaned myself up and then we were off to town. I have to say my hotel is gorgeous! It really does look like an old Chinese Palace and is in a pretty green surrounding between the third and the second ringroad. I will upload some pictures later. The room is gorgeous, too and I really like it here.
Britta took me to town to get something to eat and a prepaid phone card. Normally in China it’s the same as in the US you have to pay when somebody calls you, too, but you can easily get around that if you pay 10 kuai a month, cuz if you do that, you don’t have to pay when somebody calls you, which is important to me, in case my mom wants to call me, you know. So yeah, I’m hooked with a new phone number now, wicked, eh?
As an important notice to all those of you, who use to write to my normal e-mail account, remember you have eto write to my hotmail one, while I am in China, cuz I can’t get into my normal one from here.
What else did we do, we went for a walk in a little park and then Britta was off to meet some friends, she is leaving China tomorrow and won’t come back to live here for while so it’s hello for me and good bye for her, which sucks, cuz I would have loved to have her here. I went back to my hotel, slept for about an hour, got ready for dinner and off I was to the other side of the town to meet up with her and her fiance. A friend of theirs joined us and we had really great all vegetarian tofu kitchen. It was hard core yummy. Afterwards we went for drinks, which was a lot of fun, too, cuz soon we began to play drinking games. It makes communication in a not familiar language so much easier. I suck at Chinese, but I hope I will be getting better at it soon!
I think I was home around 3 a.m. or something like that and then fell into bed. Watched a bit TV and had a nice tight sleep for about 9 hours. I will get ready now to hit down town for some essential shopping and stuff like that, and I still have to find an apartment.
So much for now, see ya guys

listening to: Puddle of Mud - Think
mood: excited

My dear friends, I bet a lot of you won’t come back reading my blog, cuz I was closed for over half a year now, but I hope I will be able to attract new readers, new friends and of course, every single one of my old audience is welcome back.
For those who don’t know me yet, feel free to read through my past entries, you will find some of them amusing, some of them depressing, some of them down right boring and some of them might make you feel that you wanna know what is gonna go on in my life from now on.

Why did I decide to reopen my homepage and start posting again? Well after my past ten months have been rough and I didn’t feel like wining on the Internet and let you into my private things, there has been a s massive change in my life.

I’m moving to CHINA (^_^)
only for a couple of months (7) but I bet that I will experience a lot that will be interesting to read about.
Of course my life there will be very different from my life in Japan, but nonetheless very interesting.
I hope you will have a lot of fun reading about my everyday life in China. Up until then I will post a couple of pictures from a modeling project of mine (^_^)

So welcome back everybody (^___^)

My dear friends, thank you for supporting me throughout the years, but the time has come that akismission is going offline. I will keep an online blog for travel reports and the like for my friends and will tell the address only to people I know personally. I wish all of you a good an promising future.
Take care everybody

Heute morgen haben meine liebsten Mitbewohner und ich eine wunderbare Entdeckung gemacht. Bei uns, waehrend wir alle mollig pooften, hat jemand die Haustuer aufgebrochen und sich einen Spass erlaubt, mir eine Handtasche hingestellt und uf dem Kuechentisch eine Uhr hinterlassen.

Wer die Ironie jetzt nicht rafft, kann mich mal kreuzweise!!!

Listening to: nothing in particular
mood: don’t know to be honest

I got the by far strangest wake-up call this morning. I was already awake, to be completely honest with you, cuz my mind was circulating around something I was gonna do today, and yes that woke me up after 3 hrs of sleep, or was it that I already felt that this call would come?
Well, to not leave you in the dark, my dad called me a quarter to ten asking me if I was already clear in my head, at least clear enough to understand what he was gonna say, of course I was, you always are when a question like that is asked, yes I said, and then he informed me that my grandma is dead. Well, I said I was sorry, he told me that he was on his way to the hospital and that the funeral is going to be some time next week. The phone call lasted only 45 seconds. Strange, very strange. Now I have only one grandparent left. My mom’s mom. So today my last German relative died, at least the last one I actually had contact to, which is one of the reasons, why the funeral is going to be…..interesting might be the right word, even though I am not too sure about that.

listening to: to pour elise waiting for my doc to pick up the phone
mood: sick

Well well, I know I am not updating a lot lately, mosetly cuz there aren’t too many things happening that I am willing to share with a bunch of strangers, but I found something I can update you on. Not only that finally the the second part of the second season (Prison Break) has arrived from Japan, yeah I know, it is nuts to pay more for something like that than acutally needed, BUT I want it to look like a unit. As soon as season three is going to be released on DVD I will porbably get that one from the US. Despite the fact that Prison Break is not a succsess, I was able to get both of my housemates hooked to it. I honestly can see, why nobody likes Prison Break in Germany, the dubbed version SUCKS ASS. I have problems with all dubbed versions of movies ever since I came back from Japan, though. I mean, the original version is always better. That said let’s move on to the next topic. I also ordered hito ni yasashiku and GTO (rl version) I started with hito ni yasashiku which is basically something like 3 men and a baby only in this verison the baby is a grade school student and it is shot in Harajuku, which already made me start to cry once, cuz they show all the places I used to hang out a lot. I haven’t come very far yet, so I don’t feel the need to rant about the series….YET. GTO…I might start today, but I still have to translate some stuff for Japanese class tomorrow.
Other good news are I finllay got my hands on the westwood t-shirt I’ve been trying to hunt down for quite a while now. Hervia has updated their store. I know it sounds nuts to order a viv t-shirt online when I am going to London myself pretty soon, but I could not let that chance pass, since I’ve honestly been looking for that particular t-shirt for ever!!!
What else? I love my new car. That car is THE SHIT!!! Since I love to speed my parents bought me the best car that is suitable for a person my age ever…..I always kill those old farts in mercedes benz, or BMW when I kick down the gas pedal and they can’t follow *woot woot* it’s quite a bit faster than my TT and it has a lot more oomph.

So much for now, I have to go uni now, see ya bitches later!!!

all of you who have a livejournal account should take a look at that one, cuz all that has been happening lately to me is personal or ends in something personal, so if you wanna read something about my life, you should friend me at livejournal, so you can read the entries. If you don’t have a livejournal account, you should….I swear to you that it will be worth it. My life is very interesting at the moment, but nothing for the real world!! Means nothing for unfiltered eyes!!

watching GERMAN TV
mood: tired

the last couple of weeks were busy as hell and lots of interesting things were hunting me down and tackling me to the ground, but I made it to Germany, despite the fact that I packed my things and found a company to send it within 3 days and they also picked it up on time. They are cheap (well as cheap as sending 90kg by air can be) and fast, something that you normally can’t find in Japan.
The amount of bye bye parties and meeting new people too late made me busy as hell and not wanting to leave quite yet, but things that have to be done I rather do quick, like saying good bye.
Most of my friends from or living in Japan are coming to Europe within the next year, starting November and December this year, which keeps my hopes up, cuz some of them I already miss a lot. Like Kaytea. I still read your home made Manga about my life in Japan every day and it still amuses me. You and your husband really made my year in Japan the success it was. Thank you very much for all the kind help you were providing me with so willingly. Good friends are hard to find, but the internet gives us all the chance to easily stay in contact. So…nothing has to end.
I, of course, want to thank a couple of other people, too. Like Wax, even though we didn’t know each other a long time, he was the one who introduced me to Ritz with whom I had a lot of ridiculous funny drinking, karaoke and art show nights which I will never forget.
Aki, who was just the right person to get to know right from the beginning, cuz she introduced me to all the people in the gothic scene in Tokyo. It was a pleasure to meet them all. Many fun nights resolved from that.
I wanna thank my school, too. Cuz they made studying Japanese a fun thing in a very relaxed surrounding and I met quite a couple of good friends there. They gave me my first translating job, too.
There are many things I will miss apart from the people and life I had to leave behind. Conbinis for example. Jam packed streets (every where I go here in Germany I think….is there a holiday or something, cuz the streets are so empty), Constantly trying to figure out Kanji. The weather. The food. Being semi-famous. The fashion and many many more things.
But of course there are a lot of things and people I am looking forward to, too. My family. My friends (in Bonn, Bremen and Munich and everywhere else) Driving a car. The fact that I understand everything what is said to me (at least when they speak German kekeke) My new life here and many many things more. We will see what happens this year.

My parents picked me up in Copenhagen and we stayed there for a short while, too bad, my mom got a conjunctivitis and we decided to go back to Germany a day earlier, so I could go shopping in Hamburg, which I did with a passion. SIZES other than M and real shoe sizes up to 41….it’s heaven!!!
Now we are in Heiligendamm and are taking a break only to be hunted down by bad news. One of my dogs is very sick. She has a tumor and has to get surgery. (T______T) I hope that little fat furball survives it (T___T)

So far so good, that’s all from me for now. I will keep you updated as soon as the crazyness gives me a break and I actually can.

watching: something
mood: fucking nervous

I’m leaving in less than two weeks and all I do is party and so on. Well among the and so on was the machine live on Saturday. Kaytea was so kind to come with me (^_^) So finally I was able to see one of my fav bands live on stage and they were GREAT!! I was a bit disappointed because it wasn’t Chirolyn on base and not joe on the drums, but apart from that the live was great. Kaytea and I were standing in the back, which didn’t really matter, because we had a great view on Hakuei und Kiyoshi, the guitar God. Well and even though we were not there for to be seen by the band, we couldn’t help it, cuz they had black light and fucking God in heaven both of our heads were glowing like crazy, so even in the dark we were hard core medatsu!
Beautiful lights, but they switched on the main light during one song a couple of times, which made me feel a bit uncomfortable, but since they played all the songs I love the most it was a forgivable flaw. They are not as chit chatty as Penicillin, but still had some short stories to tell the audience, which I already have forgotten, blame it on the alcohol, I consume WAY too much of that stuff lately. Hakuei fucking sexy as always, and thank god, he finally took of his shirt and made me happy with that. As always he was whoring himself and tried to sell the merch to the audience, pretending to be crying to make us buy his shit, while Kiyoshi made him shut up a couple of times letting his guitar squeal. Hilarious while witnessing it, boring to read about it here on my blog though. Right after the live was over I went to the merch table and bought a couple of things *woot woot* of course I couldn’t resist, you know me.
After a short chit chat with a couple of Kaytea’s clients we made our way home to Tokyo (the live was in Yokohama)